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Name: izzy
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i want to just crawl in a ball and die.
not like YOU would notice. | | |
| i dont know what to do anymore. everything is just. falling apart even more. i dont know what's really going on. all i want is the fucking truth.. is that so much to ask for? i try to tell people the truth, depending on the circumstances ill tell you the truth whether or not you wanna hear it. and its not fair. i feel like EVERYONE is lying to me. not just a few people.. i mean everyone. and its not cool. and some other shit is going on. its back to one day were talking the next she seems to hate me. i dont know and i really just want to be able to move on and get out of her life cause everyone knows [[from davids fucking huge ass mouth that gets into stuff..he doesnt need to be getting into]] that i "depress her. i mean im not saying its true cause.. its not. but whatever. believe what you want and make me feel worse. and when i say what i did up there ^^ its not that i dont wanna work it out and be friends its just everyone is telling me that i ruined her life.. so whats the point. its not even like she wants to work it out anyway. maybe i did ruin her life but i cant fix that. but theres someone who probably could, but that doesnt matter.. ugh whatever. it wont be 1 month and 2 days much longer.
yah know if you really hate me this much david then just fucking kill me! god
wtf sorry needed to vent.
yeah today was bad i bitched at my dad this morning and he yelled back and yeah im prolly gonna be grounded when he comes home but oh well. see if i care. hes a fuck head who needs to stay out of my life anyway. i just want both my parents out. i mean they can ask simple questions but they need to not be this fucking gay. whatever. uhh// science was the only good class. i was hiper from a fruit roll-up it was good.
im gonna go watch tv. have a great day.
bye
izzy
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| yeah. uhh.. floRidda was quite fun. i got buRnt tho, but it's cool. uhh today was okay.. uhh i slept fRom about 11pm - 115am but it's cool.. uhh... school is gay and i hate it.
1 month and 1 day.. today.. yeah wahoo. doesn't mean SHIT to me. and i don't see the point. god wtf. i felt alot happieR. now that i Really had time to just get away fRom all my stRess and all my pRoblems it gave me to much time to think and to much time foR myself and not having to do anything foR anyone else Really, but simple things.
yeah it's not that cool and i Really didn't like it. i mean the tRip was gReat, cept foR they didn't let us go paRasailing but that's besides the point. i was alot happieR and i had to much time on my hands to think and shit and now i feel woRse. and i just wanna give up. and i just wanna staRt again and just whateveR. but i dont know. i just aRRRggggg.. whateveR i'm pissed, and i'm missing my show so ill just wRite later. have a gReat day.
yeah.. if anyone has mR. tittle, and knows how to do his stupid pRojekt with the whole numbeRs from youR electRicity thing outside, then please infoRm me on how it has something to do with anything in this god damn pRojekt..
alRighty then, bye y'all
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izzY* | | |
| heyy, what's up?
yeah not much here.. i'm still kinda packing-ish.. and yeah.. its cool i guess. ium leaving tomorrow at like 330.. well my dads like " were leaving at 330" so prolly more around 4.. hah yeah. hmm i dont know if im forgetting anything.. hope not..yeahhhh.. hmm im SO excited to go.. wheee.. lol.. hmm.. well.. this thing is here.. to talk about my life.. and how its going right??... k so here it goes.
status with michael: uhh yeah. okay so i got kinda mad at him for lying to me. he doesnt know it tho. he knows that im mad but not sure why and yeah. we didnt talk today, cept i asked him how he was then go up and kind aleft cause his friend dave came over and me and dave dont get along. soo yeah. uhh i wouldnt say its going the way it should be, but whatever. i do care. peopel are getting the impression i dont. but i do. i really do. but i mean. its just hard to care when he doesnt seem to. and he seems to just wanna hang out with dave and .. ditch all his other friends. i mean yes i know we arent friends but i see what he does. he did the same with me. and i guess its just the way he is. theres no problem with it.. but yeah i dont know.. whatever. i really miss the friend ship tho. i guess im slowly letting him go. but its fuckign hard. maybe this trip will help me keep my mind off things and maybe realize that.. hes right.. and so is dave. but whatever. i couldnt care about what dave says. hes not part of this. yet its my fault he is. but whatever its also my fault that hes not friends with some people and its my fault that theyre sad and its my fautthat we arnt friends. lets just blame everything on fucking me and see what happens! its like a fucking game.
See how long it takes izzy to explode of guilt and break her 3 week thing! loads of fun, doesnt take that long
yeah how about fucking not. today is 3 weeks and two days bitches! whose proud? hah well i am.
yeah.. hmm i think i'll be okay.. not sure when but hopefully soon. i've become pretty close to kendall thru this. shes such an awesome person! and i love her to death. shes been here for me when i had no one and i really appreciate that. and yeah! shes the coolest and if you dont like her then you can talk to me and then die
hah.. kz* ahh i love you so freaking much. thanks for sticking by me and not hating me like some people, and for not really going against me. dont knwo what id do with out yah. thanks for watching meat ball too! lol! your the coolest!!
micheal* yeah.. sorry.
yeah so thats all i feel like typing, plus i have to go shower.
ttyl
ill try n write in Florida, if not ill write when i get home monday night!
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iZzY*
3 weeks and 2 days  BITCHES!! | | |
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